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A broken hallelujah

It is Sunday morning and I had my coffee and creamer, and will get ready for church soon.

I feel conflicted about how this week has gone: I had my book signing at The Carpenter’s Cup bookstore, was able to spend time this week with our kids and grandkids (eating pizza at Mazzio’s and taking our granddaughters bowling), joined a ladies’ Bible study on Priscilla Shirer’s book The Armor of God, but Ray and I are at each other’s throats again, which started this time over a stupid ceiling fan not working.

Heather & Leah--Mazzio's Pizza

Heather & Leah–Mazzio’s Pizza





Annabelle & Violet bowling

Annabelle & Violet bowling

I think life is just that way, though. As Charles Dickens’ book A Tale of Two Cities says, “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times…”. A mixture of the good and bad. All of it sacred and for the purpose of glorifying God. 

woman stretching arms

woman worshipping

This week as I was driving in the car (my prayer-mobile), I was worshipping, listening to K-Love radio station.

Even though my heart felt heavy about some things, I chose to praise and worship God. I gave Him my broken hallelujah, the name of a song by The Afters. You can watch the YouTube video here: Broken Hallelujah

The lyrics say:

I can barely stand right now.
Everything is crashing down,
And I wonder where you are.
I try to find the words to pray.
I don’t always know what to say,
But you’re the one that can hear my heart.
Even though I don’t know what your plan is,
I know you make beauty from these ashes.
I’ve seen joy and I’ve seen pain.
On my knees, I call your name.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.
With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to you.
Here’s my broken, here’s my broken,
Hallelujah [x3]
(Here’s my broken)
You know the things that have brought me here.
You know the story of every tear.
‘Cause you’ve been here from the very start.
Even though I don’t know what your plan is,
I know you make beauty from these ashes.
I’ve seen joy and I’ve seen pain…”
woman looking out window

woman looking out window

Yes, God knows the story of every tear you shed and He makes beauty from ashes

Keep your praise and worship on…in the best of times and in the worst of times. Focus on Jesus. All these things are wrapping up soon. (Revelation 1:7)

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Thy will be done

woman looking out window

woman looking out window

This morning I was going to the dollar store and heard the beautiful song by Hillary Song, Thy Will, on K-Love radio station. The instruments are just incredible. 

It struck me because right now I’m going through some emotional storms:

  • My deeply troubled marriage;
  • Our uncertain rental house situation (the landlord is selling the house, and we’re not sure where we’re going to live yet);
  • Financial problems that seem to have no end in sight;
  • Our grown kids’ various struggles;
  • Many questions about exactly what God is doing in my life right now. 

I parked our car and just listened to the song, worshipping and praying.

Then when I came out of the store, Third Day’s song I need a miracle was playing.

I prayed,  “Yes, God, right now I need a couple of miracles!”

The Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and whispered, “You are the miracle.”

It took me aback, but this is so true. God has done amazing, miraculous things in my life. 

Jesus is my Lord, Savior, Healer, Deliverer, Strength, Strong Tower, Rock, Best Friend, Husband, Mighty God and King. I give Him all the glory for what He’s done in my life. 

I know God is El Roi, and He sees me. (Genesis 16:13). He has goodness in store for me. (Jeremiah 29:11) It’s hard to count it all joy, and I’m distracted by the noise in my life. But He wants to use me in miraculous ways for HIS glory. I need to just trust Him, because God is faithful

Below are some of the lyrics to Thy Will, that really blessed me.

Yes, Lord, Thy will be done in my life. 


Part of Thy Will Lyrics

…Somehow I ended up here

I don’t wanna’ think

I may never understand

that my broken heart

may be part of Your plan…

I know you’re good But this don’t feel good right now

And I know you think Of things I could never think about

It’s hard to count it all joy

Distracted by the noise

Just trying to make sense Of all your promises

Sometimes I gotta stop

Remember that you’re God And I am not

So Thy will be done Thy will be done Thy will be done

Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is

Thy will be done Thy will be done Thy will

I know you see me

I know you hear me,

Lord Your plans are for me

Goodness you have in store

I know you hear me

I know you see me,

Lord Your plans are for me

Goodness you have in store

So Thy will be done Thy will be done.


Third Day Video: I need a miracle.

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What is obedience?

What is obedience to God? I learned this from the leaders Roger and Laureen Traver at the Moumtaintop Ministries marriage retreat in Kansas City, Kansas, this weekend with my husband Ray, which I’m going to blog about this week.

I thought what they said was powerful and true, so I made a graphic from it at Canva.

Obedience is…